Well, it's sure good to be back! I had hoped that the last few days would lift my spirits but sadly there were many difficult choices to make and all leave me a bit sad and somewhat defeated. I suppose I should explain for it weighs quite heavily in my mind but there was a choice made by someone very close to me that left me between a rock and a hard spot. I have healthy boundries for my children and I and unfortunately they were crossed but not without warning.
I felt that this person was like a sister to me because I was an only child and I cherished that dear friendship. I had to walk away from that friendship this last week and make great sacrifices that broke my heart. I sent my beloved cats away to live with my ex-husband and now I'm not sure if my eyes will ever be dry again. He is running my kittycam now and it will be back up in just a few days. I Could not allow her to bring a person into my home that would jeopardize the safety of my children and myself....I do not regret that decision.
I truly hope that this life treats her well and her mental outlook changes to a healthier one. I told her I harbor no grudges and someday i truly hope she can see clearly I did what I had to do, not out of spite but great love for her as a human being. I will go ahead with my life now a little sadder but a lot wiser I will be sending positive thoughts her way too.
Bright Blessings to all!
