Tarot Tuesday

Today I drew from my new deck, The Deviant Moon Tarot and the Nine of Swords came up. On this card we can see a rather distraught woman sitting up in their bed with a little imp-like creature gnawing on her shoulder. The Nine of Swords is usually interpreted as depression, nightmares, worry, hopelessness but in this deck I feel it implies more of an anxiety feeling.

I'm sure that everyone can identify with those dreams that we can have that are fraught with anxiety and worry (and that can sometimes wake us from a deep sleep) only to have their worries stick with us for quite some time. When I look at this card, I get the impression that her worry may not be well founded and the little imp creature is her nagging fears that may stem from a  "making mountains out of mole hills" mindset.  

This card  indicates the paralyzing nature of our fears and negative expectations. If we allow ourselves to be bound by fear of the future,  we may eventually create a negative reality for ourselves by virtue of our expectations. We must take a wider perspective of the circumstances and not let ourselves be overcome by the negative feelings we are experiencing. 

Tarot Tuesday

G. Hobya appears to be a very scary individual indeed and to me he represents my irrational fear...commonly called Agoraphobia. It's a terrible feeling, that of panic, when venturing into unknown areas and unfamiliar territory and it is never comfortable and always too far from my safety zone. G. Hobya reminds me that this fear lies only in my imagination...the "what if's" and "should be's."

I often feel that I "should be" in control over this fear and "what if" will probably never happen so when I see this frightening fellow I must stop my thinking in circles and dig deep into just why this fear has taken such a strong hold on my imagination. Most of the time people who have this fear find themselves thrust into this mindset after a traumatic event or situation...sadly I am no different.

G. Hobya waves our fears in front of us, making them appear quite real but at the same time he is trying to show us that if we look to the past and figure out what this fear is and how it came about , we will be able to distinguish the imaginary from situations in which a healthy caution is appropriate. By breaking old habits and patterns we are liberating ourselves to a life of feeling okay in our own skin and joyful.






Card # 61 G. Hobya
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