Sep 16, 2009

Welcome Wednesday!

Well, it's sure good to be back! I had hoped that the last few days would lift my spirits but sadly there were many difficult choices to make and all leave  me a bit sad and somewhat defeated. I suppose I should explain for it weighs quite heavily in my mind but there was a choice made by someone very close to me that left me between a rock and a hard spot. I have healthy boundries for my children and I and unfortunately they were crossed but not without warning.

I felt that this person was like a sister to me because I was an only child and I cherished that dear friendship. I had to walk away from that friendship this last week and make great sacrifices that broke my heart. I sent my beloved cats away to live with my ex-husband and now I'm not sure if my eyes will ever be dry again. He is running my kittycam now and it will be back up in just a few days. I Could not allow her to bring a person into my home that would jeopardize the safety of my children  and myself....I do not regret that decision.

I truly hope that this life treats her well and her mental outlook changes to a healthier one. I told her I harbor no grudges and someday i truly hope she can see clearly I did what I had to do, not out of spite but great love for her as a human being. I will go ahead with my life now a little sadder but a lot wiser I will be sending positive thoughts her way too.


Bright Blessings to all!

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Liz...whatever you did, you did to protect your family...there is no crime in that sweetheart.
I would do anything to keep mine from harm.
Glad you're back!

greekwitch said...

I am sorry you are sad. But the good thing is you know you what is right.
Why did you have to give away your cats? That is even sadder!

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Sending healing thoughts your way, Liz. Blessings to you, your kids and your cats. And to your ex-husband too, for giving the cats a new home.

Lisa said...

I can't imagine you without your dear cats. It's sweet that your ex-husband will run the kitty cam for you. It's not always easy to do the right thing but it's still always the right thing. :) In time that will bring a lot of comfort.

Jane Metcalfe said...

I cannot understand why you have no cats now and they are with your ex. Does your room-mate still live in your house? I'm a bit confused but still think you're ace :-)

dreaming in maine said...

Boy, have I been there. I have had to make the very hard choice to walk away from a friendship that meant a great deal to me. It is never an easy thing to do, but you have to honor yourself and your family. It also sounds as though, as you send her away with love, that you also must consider this break to be something needed for her as well on some level.

Take some time to take care of yourself, and remember that going with your heart is always the best way.

Danni said...

Blessings and healing to you, as this break must have been very hard. At the end of the day though, you know you did what was right for you and your family.

I'm glad that your ex is able to give your cats a home. I hope knowing that they are somewhere safe is some comfort to you. *hugs*

clairedulalune said...

I am so sorry to hear you are sad Liz. I went through something similar a few months back, but it was for the best all round and hopefully the person shall see that in time. I knw how you feel, it is horrible, but it shall soon fade. Hope you feel brighter soon and you did what was best for your family. You did the right thing.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry this has happened, hopefully the situation may resolve in time, but why did you have to send your cats away? (((hugs)))

Bridgett said...

We must always worry and protect our families first. I don't think anybody would argue with that. You did what you had to do.

I hope your pain eases and the days get a little brighter for you, friend.

)O(
boo

Anonymous said...

your cats will give you love which you need right now. You are a mum and mums do what they have to to protect their home and their children.
Peace be with you at the difficult time.
May there be gentle rain to heal your sorrow.
and clense the hurt and pain.
May there be healing may there be light may there be love may there be forgiveness may there be strength to go forward on your journey and knowledge that you are not alone in this life..wishing the love & blessings of the god & goddess through universal nrg
in the form of a group hug.
peace be with you my friend at this difficult time
Till the wheel turns again and we can once again find
happy thoughts in the east, and nrg in the south and happy emotions in the west and a clear path and direction in the north. All the while spirit is with you.
blessings
Lesley